12/10/25
reading yaoi again after months and getting mad
hi. as i write this i am currently procrastinating on my homework for finals. two essays and an atmospheric perspective drawing...i Got this. i had to stop my Hard Work because i am really mad. those who know me know i Love my yaoi. horrible horrible Horrible yaoi. i always forget just how Hard it is to find something good after taking a break from the genre for a while. but oh my God this time i got baited so hard that i HAD to write SOMETHING because OH MY GOD. okay so for context like summer this year i went on an original yaoi-reading hiatus because my mind was too occupied with my Yaoi of the Year (spamtenna) and i was too busy reading ten billion million trillion gagaillion fics about them. it wasn't until likelast month where i was like man. i need a break. like i love them but i Neeed a break. so i read ths YA romance novel that was pretty horrible in the Best Way possible (i really want to talk about this soon btw. give me like a few weeks) and i was like you know what... i Miss my Yaoi. and i Especially felt this while working on my finals WHILE SICK. so yesterday i opened up the worst site ever (mango) and immediately the front page already had me Pissed off. this yaoi is just a copy of this one yaoi that was super successful but it lowkey sucked so much fucking ass but Because it was so super successful and all of the fujoshis ran to it Now everyone else is trying to replicate its success and now there's ten billion thousand fucking cpopies of the same shSHIT FROM AN ASSS!!!!!! okay sorry i got kind of mad bu t. like. man it's like man. why is it so hard to find something good. am i just looking in the wrong places. i miss stumbling across cherry magic so much. cherry magic My Goat. okay sorry let me get on to the offender. should i write you a love letter instead gave me so much hope when i stumbled across it. i was specifically looking for something in the fantasy genre to satiate my middle school nostalgia. the art is wonderful to look at! and the mc has glasses and brown hair which is like Totally my type lololololol didn't care for the ml that much (i've seen too much of the pasty white blonde haired blue eyed weird guy. enough.) but i was like Okay i can work with this. tell me why these Grown Men cannot act their age. im okay with comedy im okay with some silly happenings here and there but Oh My God. dude. i cannot get over how ????/stupid??? it became. like the story started out with this pretty compelling narrative and then? things just got really stupid. somehow it seemed like the characters Devolved as the story went on. i don't know how that could happen. i realize i should probably maybe give a summary of what this shit is even about but i don't even want to. i am That mad i just want to talk about why it sucked. lowkey writing this now i feel bad because peopleput in like so much effort into the story and art but i just I DON'T UNDERSTAANNDDD....i don't know maybe there's something wrong with Me because other people seem to like it... but i don't know. i'm glad other people got enjoyment out of it anyway! the drama/miscommunication feels worse than what i've seen come out of high school romances. like is that not insane. the established supporting characters were like suddenly cast away to just focus on the mc and ml. the weird sudden conflict with that bald guy that was executed so strangely. i do not Understand. i want yaoi that takes itself Seriously...something that will leave an impact on me. it doesn't have to be profound, i just want to leave it thinking like oh! that was a nice read, at the bare minimum. like that is an impact, even if not large. i enjoy my stupid cliches and the such it Does Not take a lot for me to like something. just make it engaging and believable enough. if someone has any yaoi recs can you drop them on my guestbook PLease and Thankyuo
12/7/25
LONG TIME NO SEE HLELLO!!! oh how i missed opening up notepad to edit this godforsaken code that is held up by sticks and a dream...how are you? i've moved the site from nekoweb back onto neocities because. i dunno. i started out on neocities first so this place just feels more "homey" to me. for the time being, i've deleted most of my social medias off of my phone, so i will not be active on my art accounts for a few weeks, i think? i'll be back next year for sure! however, that doesn't mean i've stopped working on projects—far from it! i'm currently working on a series of drawings that i show a little sneak peek of in the art gallery section, so make sure to check it out! speaking of the art gallery section, i've changed it up a bit! my artworks will now be shown in collections that i will rotate every so often. i feel like this way will make it much easier to look at my art instead of being bombarded by everything all at once!!! finals are coming up soon...literally next week and i have to write two essays >_< ugghhhhh!!!! but it'll be over soon, and then i'll have some peace and quiet in my life for a few months...joy! been getting into kirby air riders recently. gusy. i love marx so much he was my fav when i was a kid and i'm so glad they gave the freak a driver's license. go my jester
7/25/25
omg i've updated my diary two days in a row make a wish. hi guys. i love looking at everyone's websites in the explore page it fills me with so much joy. unfortunately it also makes me think FUCK i NEED to update my site... maybe soon! i feel like the pure vanilla theme is Perfect but also i'm thinking i kinda want to change it... we will see! i'm also thinking about categorizing my art caauusseee i Cannot keep lumping in my tenna doodles with my illustrations. i mean i Can but also it's like dude i gotta stop. especially since i'm doing those Everyday. so maybe expect that to change soon lol???? also webrings... i want to join some... but idk where to put them . that's also something i need to figure out. okay goodbyyeee have a good day!!!
7/24/25
hello Guys. i have Not been feeling the best. i will leave that at That. AAAAHHHHHHHHHA OKay so art-wise i have been feeling pretty good at least! i feel like i'm only going to continue getting better and better esp since i'm planning on taking a figure drawing course next semseter... i hope that works out. i've been drawing in my sketchbook pretty consistently OH ANNDD i've been doing artfight this year! i'm on team fossils and my user is "barri" if ur interested in checking that out. if you've looked at my art you've probably noticed that i've been infected. yup the UTDR brainworms have been eating me Alive and i don't think it's gonna stop anytime soon. this is what 9 year old me would've wanted.... i love my CRT with issues. don't worry man i'm also a child of divorce.
5/8/25
hello! i just wanted to quickly talk about my website's newest iteration, as well as a few extra things. previously, the site had a LOT more going on, to the point it heavily overwhelmed me! this led to me abandoning my site for a few months because i did not feel like dealing with everything that was going on. i am Not good at coding, far from it actually, so i kept getting frustrated time and time again whenever i would work on something new for the site.
the reason why i created a site for myself in the first place was based on two reasons: i wanted to archive my art, and i wanted to share my thoughts freely. my previous design fell short on accomplishing these things for me! i ended up becoming much more invested in the site's visuals, and while that isn't a bad thing, this unfortunately led me astray from my site's original intentions.
that is why the current design for my site is a bit simplistic! i wanted something that was unique to me but manageable enough to not be a burden. i'm happy to say that i am extremely satisfied with the end result!
in other news. the eternal sugar update haaahhahahaaahhahahahaha... guys... needless to say you all can expect some fanart from me soon. thank you for reading, and have a wonderful day!